Tomorrow my oldest son starts kindergarten. I've never been a stay at home mom; he's gone to daycare since he was 6 weeks old, so I'm used to not having him with me during the day. But with daycare it was different. While he was at daycare if I wanted to keep him out and have a day with him I could. If I wanted to go pick him up after lunch I could. Now he will be in Kindergarten Monday-Friday 8am-3pm. No more keeping him home on days where I just need time with him, and no more picking him up early because I miss him. He's growing up....fast!
I lost my youngest son Dayton 6 months ago, and now I feel like I'm losing Davin too. It's a different kind of loss though. With Davin it's just that he's growing up and becoming more independent. No longer Mommy's baby! Tomorrow is a huge milestone for Davin which will require lots of pictures! First day of Kindergarten! But it makes me sad to know that this is something that I won't get to experience with Dayton in 5 years....
<3 Hugs, sweet girl! <3
ReplyDeleteHUGS Momma!! I'd like to lie and say it gets better but with Matthew starting middle school tomorrow I feel much the same way. He's not my baby anymore and hasn't been for a while but I like to remind myself that him becoming a young man and growing up is way better than the alternative I already know too. Does that makes sense? It does in my head. Get lots of pics tomorrow and cry in between, that's what I do.
ReplyDeleteThanks! And yes, it made sense. I'm extremely happy he's here with me and I get to experience this with him, it's just another reminder of something I won't experience with Dayton. But I got lots of pics and he did really good. I waited until I got home to cry because I didn't want to get him scared or nervous! Now, I'm just patiently waiting for 3pm so I can go get him and hear all about it!!
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