June 27, 2011 - I took a home pregnancy test and got the two pink lines that I had been hoping and praying for. I was excited and also a bit shocked because I wasn't expecting it so soon. I had become pregnant at the end of April 2011 but on May 2nd I had a miscarriage. My husband and I talked about waiting a couple of months before trying again, but like they always say.....you always get pregnant when you're not trying! And we did! We were both excited, but after going through the miscarriage and having to go back and tell everyone that we weren't pregnant anymore, we decided to keep this pregnancy to ourselves for a while.
I had to go to the clinic yesterday to schedule an appointment to get more birth control. I asked them if since I already had a yearly exam this year if I would have to have another with them. She said yes and asked if I had just had a baby if that's why I already had one this year. I said yes I delivered on February 11 and left it at that. As they looked up my file they said "OK, so you were last here on June 28 to confirm a pregnancy." I shook my head yes. And her next remark was "Alright, so now we need to change the number in your household from 3 to 4." I sad no and knew by her expression I was going to have to tell her my baby was stillborn. I hate the look people give you when you have to tell them your baby died.
So, today is June 27, 2012. Today starts all those "this time last year" things running through my head. This time last year, I was just finding out that I was pregnant. Tomorrow it will be this time last year, the clinic confirmed my pregnancy. This day last year was a happy day for me. This day this year, not so much....
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